emptyness song by meWhy has today already gone
With my mind being ripped and torn
While looking at a strangers face
I realise I'm the one who is out of place.
To the sun who keeps on shining
To the girl who keeps on whining
To the cops who keep on fining
To the rich who keep on dining
You all mean nothing to me
So get lost and let me be free.
Wouldn't be nice to get three minutes alone
To find out the person who to me is unknown
The unknown is spose to never be found
And it won't be if you keep screwing me around.
All the disturbing thoughts won't escape my mind
The calm and peacefulness is always left behind
Wishing to do the stuff I never could do
And the reason why was all because of you.
I wanna know whether I'm the only one here
How come I can't hold a single person dear
Is it just the person who I am???
Or is it because I couldn't give a damn.
God only knows why I'm here on earth
And no one knows why I didn't die at birth.
God only knows why I'm here on earth
And no one knows
Suicide PreventionSuicide Prevention
To the editor:
I would like to bring up the topic of suicide. Suicide doesn't get enough support. So I would like to help people realize that it's a big issue in our community and around the world.
Did you know more than 5,000 people in the U.S.A commit suicide each year. It's sad if you think about it. Some thing that trigger these thoughts are bulling, sexual and emotional abuse and your sexual orientation. (Bi, gay, lesbian). It doesn't matter because you are who you are. These thoughts start out with depression then lead to self harm (cutting ect.), then finally thoughts of suicide/attempts.
I myself have gone through this and trust me it's not easy to get through. I've also lost one of my bestest friends to suicide and it was really hard to take in. there is more to life. Family, friends, loved ones please ask for help. Talk to someone about it. Suicide is not the answer.
Ashely Westbank, BC
The Secret Chap 6Chapter 6 "lust"
-sigh- i am sooooo bored...hmmm..maybe ill.. nah
"hey ruik guess what!!!!"
"i wuvvv wuu"
"awwh hehe i wuvvv wuu too"
"awh hehehe umm...skylar"
"would you like to come for dinner tonight and a movie. im kinda lonely "
"teehee..soo what time should i come?"
"anytime works for me hun"
"okay..soo an hour"
"okie dokie..love you bye"
"love you too bye-
damn he hung up on me O.o eh oh well now what to make
he walked in all hansome and smiley ahhh i love him sooo fluffing much..
skylar came up and gave me the biggest hug ever..so sweet of him.
"mmm..ruick that was awesmazing!!!!"
"your welcome..oh let me do the dishes"
"no no its fine i can do them"
i got up and started the dishes...i didnt notice but skylar was oming up behind me...he puts his arms around me and kissed my cheek..i blushed
The Secret Chap.5Chapter 5 "Im sorry"
A reguler mornning.. -sigh- I guess im just going to go lock myself in my room for the rest of the day ):
"ruik..are you busy?"
"okay..can you come over i need to tell you something"
"alright..be there in a half hour"
"love you too"
i walked into skylar's house and noticed it was kinda empty...his dad's stuff was gone
"where's your dad's stuff?"
"that's what i wanted to talk about with you..."
we sat down on his bed and started talking. It was wired cause i can tell in his voice he was worried or something. i started to worry about him.
I felt bad for skylar..he was in so much pain right now ): dad gone..mom being stupid..broken rib..and soo much more.. I just didn't know what to say
his eyes shimmered.
"I love you"
"(: I love you too"
"hmm... you should spend the night..im the o
The Secret Chap. 4Chapter 4 "Lies"
it's bein days since the last time i talked to him. i was starting to worry. Skylar wasen't answering his phone when i called or texted. everytime i would go over his mom would say he's "busy". what was wrong?... i wondered.
still nothing from skylar.
*ring* wow my phone is ring-SKYLAR!!!!!!
omg where have you bein no non more important are you okay?
"i love you"
"i love you too"
"okay.. ill be over in a few. i have something for you"
"see ya in a few"
damn he hung up!
* knock knock *
"hey ruik. how have you bein?"
"okay but i was worried sick about you..what's wrong?"
"oh nothing..i was just..it's not important."
"yes it is"
"nah..here you go"
"what is it?"
*opens it up*
"do you like it?"
"i love it!"
thats when skylar grabed my waist whispered "im glad" and kissed me. oh how i miss his kisses.such a passionate kiss.
"can i stay here ton
The Secret Chap.3Chaper 3. "kiss of joy"
i woke up finally!cause you know my phone wouldn't stop vibrating XD Turns out skylar was trying to get me up so we could go out for abit...hmmm...
Got my butt out of bed then went for a shower!!! refreshing (:
walked out the door and met skylar at starbucks..
i started to blush. Skylar ran over and gave me a big HUG!
"how are you" i asked.
"not to bad cause your here (: how about you"?
"awwh! im okay i guess"
He grabed my hand and whispered in my ear.
"everything is going to be alright Ruik. trust me"
We were sitting on the swings no giving a crap what people think. As long as we were happy it's all good.
Skylar took my hand again and lead me to the old oak tree across from the park.
"I LOVE YOU"!!!
" I LOVE YOU TOO"!!
"of course im sure"
His eyes were sparkiling in the sun. they looked like blue dimonds. Oh his smile so sweet.
The Secret Chap. 2Chapter 2.
"its this really true?"
Skylar and I were walking along the beach side when he stoped.
"i have something to tell you"
I paused and wondered what posibally he had to say. Was it good or bad?
"I dont know how to put this but ill try... Ruik.. your the most wonderfulest person ive ever met. your sweet,fun to be around,and everything in between. I love you and not much more can say that."
My heart melted!
"awwwh..Skylar...thats so sweet..I love you too!"
We were laying in the grass hinking of nothing but us. The one thing i didn't get thou why does he have to leave. ): ill miss him.
That kiss <3 so passionate but smooth. Like we are the only ones in the world.... Then my dad came in
Dad kicked Skylar out and started to yell. /: always the same...i just dont know why. freaking alcholic monster.
covered in bruses and cuts... he did it again.. just lost it.
I called skylar and said sorry that my dad was be
Little Red Theme Songwell here you go!
little red, little red dont be scared dont run. the wolf is coming tonight, little red little red you'll be okay, little red little red little red, trust you heart and dont be frighten, little red little red little red you will win. little red little red little red your fine,little red little red little red, RUN!
The Secret Chap.1Chapter 1 "it was ment to be"
Ruik = Jake Manson (my friend)
Skylar = Daniel Casey (my friends bf)
Hi im Ruik. Im 15 and curentally living with my dad.My dad is not the best dad but i deal with it. Im in love with this dude Skylar... So sweet and kind. He's my muffin. We have bein together for about 5 months <3 .... So here is my story of life, love , hurt , and lost.
Today was a slow day. Nothing really exciting just snow. I really dislike snow.It's too cold and white i mean blah.
Skylar visited today I was so happy!!! He look down though so we talked for abit. Turns out he's moving in the summer time That really sucks cause i wont be able to see him anymore.
I HATE MY FATHER!!!! He is such a drunk abusive asshole! Sometimes ..... never mind that's important.
I took a walk to calm down and try to stop the bruseing on my arm. I wish my dad would just smarting up and stop this no-sence. I jus can't take the pain from him anymore!. I wan