bloodlust : chapter 10
bloodlust chapter 10 "what is wrong"
well here we go. another day of pain and hate. what is wrong..... everything apperentlly.
oh she just didnt call me that. ooooh sometimes i just wanna.... nevermind. besides the point thats reall uncalled for. i mean really. just no need for it.
okay i just want to draw the line and punch them the fuck out. but i went to my locker instead. i just contuined to ingonor them and to make sure they dont exsite in my head. i mean big time.
i opened my locker to a note falling out.
i am sooooooo sorry for not being around lately for you and for saying im always busy. i just wanted you to know that i love you with all my heart and ill make it up for you. meet me after school and ill show you what i mean.
love you lots"
awwww is all i had to say and think about.
'i love him so much'
i thought to myself
bloodlust : chapter 9
bloodlust chapter 9 "wow'
i was sitting in my desk thinking and wondering why the world is so crewl. so i thought to myself what if everyody actually liked me. so i dreamed about that day.
ovisally i fell asleep if the flipping teacher is yelling at me to get up. i grab my stuff and walked out of the class room. the teacher didn't stop me tho because i do this all the time so im pretty sure he dosen't care. mr looks like a pedofile. that's what everyone calls him. mr pedofile. lol
"im home and going to my room. and im not hungry"
"i dont care"
i locked my door and opened my email. 'oh this one looks interesting' i said to myself.
your hair so lame.
your clothes so blah,
u so cutter,
so go kill yourself
love the cheerleders"
oh i just got so pissed when i read te rest of my emails. i just couldn't stand it anymore.
bloodlust : chapter 8
bloodlust chapter 8 "bloody night"
i left a path of blood on my floor. i made sure my door was locked so no one could get in.
"im not hungry"
'bitch' i whispered to myself. i was gettin tired and sick of my mom treating me like that. i cleaned up my little path and layed down and played some black veil brides.
"let me in"
"you have till the count of 3"
"im not a baby so fuck off"
"you wait until you come out of that room. you'll be in so much fucking troble you skank"
my mom out of all people called me a skank. wow i just couldn't believe it. so i packed up some stuff and went out my window and went to the park were i always go to. i was sitting there thinking how my life had this big turn in it and how i couldn't believe all of it.
bloodlust : chapter 7
bloodlust chapter 7 "is that really you"
not having a care in the world i put on my bring me the horizon shirt and left for another day.
i wlked to hot topic to find some new clothes and stuff. i found this one shirt saying
'if you hate me i dont care, i am who i am so suck it'
i loved that shirt so thats one of the things i was goin to buy. i found a few braclets and went to the counter. i payed for the stuff and left.
"why aren't you dead yet"
of course they would start that up. but whatever i just kept on walking away. you know im retty sure im going crzy about this.
i bumped into my boyfriend who was all jumpy.
"i got to go"
he left and i wonder. 'is that really him' i didn't know tho.
bloodlust : chapter 6
bloodlust chapter 6 "is this the end or not"
i was think and thinking about how people are asses. well most people any way. i was also thinking about how me and and my mom are growing even more apart. i mean we always fight but lately it has bein about everything. i dont know why tho.
i was walking the dog when people well 3 of them who i didn't know came up to me.
"i pretty sure this is the girl everyone talks trash about"
"i really like your outfit"
"uh...thanks i guess"
after they walked away i was surprized that they didn't say anything rude to me. but i think they don't mean it and that they were just set up for this.
bloodlust : chapter 5
bloodlust chapter 5 "why does it have to be this way"
"come out of your room right now!!! you are going to school if you like it or not"
i finished getting my shoes on grab my marilyn manson bag and left. i walk and bumped into my bf.
"hey what's wrong?"
"just my family"
"yeah. it's driving me crazy"
the school bell rang and i headed to english class. i hated english class. i really hated it i mean really really hated it.
bloodlust : chapter 4
bloodlust chapter 4 "here we go again"
i was walking my dog when he started barking at something. i look but nothing was there but i could hear snikering. so i just kept on going. i didn't care i never did but lately it's getting ouy of hand. so i'm thinking they have more problems then me.i meant that to.
i finally got home when the phone started to ring. i look at the caller idea but it said restrited so i left it. it kept on ringing and everything. but knowing me i went to my room and shut the door and went to play some asking alexandria. i put it full blast so when my mom walked in she was yelling at me to turn it down but you know i couldn't hear her. she came burging in my room and unpluged it.
"that's enough. your grounded from this for 2 weeks. im tired of always yelling at you to turn it down"
i just stared at her with a evil look in my eyes. when she left i locked my door so no one eles could get in. i grab my mp3 player and listened to that. i also grabed my w
bloodlust : chapter 3
bloodlust chapter 3 "see i love you"
all you see is a little pool of blood on the table. look at my arm and see what i mean. i left a cut but deeper the usally. but i dont care.
the weekend is better then most days but its still any other day. me and my boyfriend went to that broken park again. we huddled up on the grass and stared off into space.
"i love you"
"i love you too"
we layed down and cuddled when you know those snobs walked over to us.
"maybe there dying right there"
"i sure hope so"
they left laughing. i stared into my boyfriend's eyes knowing that he was sick of it to. sick of how they treated us and how this is going out of hand. but i also can see that he was afrid as i was. so we just started to cuddle again.
"you know we should find a spider and keep it as a pet. just saying"
"no tat's a good idea. we should"
so we got up and started our surch.
bloodlust : chapter 2
bloodlust chapter 2 "i can't believe it"
i wake up to putting on my black veil brides t-shirt and a pear of black skinny jeans with blue converse shoes. i think to myself 'another day'
i finally get to the worse place ever. school. were most of my problems are. not only the students are bitches even some of the teacher were. like my math class teacher witch you know i have next.
i sit in the back far corner were im barely seen by people. class begun so i started to write in my book of everything. from poems to stories to lyrics and even pictures i drew. it truley had everything. i was writting about how the day was going so far.
class was over and the teacher didn't even notice i was there. thank god. i packed everything into my asking alexandria bag and walked out of the class room.
now it starts. "cutter"
"hey were is your cutting partner? is he dead yet"
"go die in a hole"
once again i put my head down a walk away from them. i went to the washroom to fix my