bloody mess chp.3
chapter 3 "we stitch these wounds"
i was blasting some black veil brides because no one was home so i could. i was writting some poems when i heard someone knocking at the door. i got up to go answer it and to my surprize it was jake.
"how did you find my house?"
"it wasen't hard to figure out"
"want to come in?"
"well welcome to my life"
"interesing house... where's ypur room?"
"now this is how i like it"
jake and ashely chatted for hours. it was time for jake to go though so ashely walked him to the door.
"would you go out with me?"
"okay. ill see you tommorrow then"
jake left and ashely went to her room to think about the awesome day she had.
bloody mess chp.2
chapter 2 "thinking"
i was thinking of jake. the boy i met in the forrest. i just couldn't get his smile out of my head or his baby blue eyes. for once i was actally happy. im never happy. it's a shocker to myself. i change the song on my stero to death to your heart by: blood on the dance floor and i turned it up abit louder.
i went to go eat dinner when my mom had this wired look on her face. i wondered why she had it. even my dad was differnt.
"so ashely why do you seem so happy"
"yes sweety why do you seem so happy"
i din't know what to say or what to do so i just sat down and started to eat my dinner.
after dinner i took a walk back to the forrest. when i got to the spot were i met jake it was empty. so i sat on the stump and waited. a hour passed and i was about to leave when i saw jake by my side.
"how are you"
"im good how about you"
"so would you like to walk to the stream with me"
jake and i were walking and chating about everyt
bloody mess : chp. 1
chapter 1 "cut away"
i was sitting on my bed with the razor in my hand and fresh new cuts on my wrists. my mom didn't know about the cutting or anything in that matter. i really didn't want her to know though. cause i didn't know what her reaction would be or what her mind would think so i just didn't bother telling her. i grab som papertowel and wipe off my razor and clean up around my cuts. i put my bracellets back on and walked out of my room.
walking down the street looking at the ground. people around me stare and smerk. i don't care but sometimes i do. i never do notice them anyway i just try to keep to myself and stay that way.
not thinking about it i walk to the old abonon house on the top of the hill. i walk to the back of the house were the creepy and dark forrest. i started to head into it when i heard something. i looked around but i saw nothing so i kept going.
i was half way into the forrest when i saw a stump in front of me so i sat there and s
why do i feel this way?
is this normal?
or is it bad?
either way i hate it,
i hate feeling this,
what i need to feel,
is pain right now,
pain is always the cure,
it always helps me through,
pain is the answer,
to all my problems,
it helps me stay calm,
i love pain,
it's all i ever knew,
so thank you pain,
for always being there for me,
i love you pain